Watch The Ride of My Life Podcast – Poem Talks – To Begin Anew©

This was an interesting test. I recorded on both my phone and Zoom on my laptop (which I normally do). I was in a coffee shop and wanted to see what would be the easiest. So that didn’t work out and I just did it the usual way. Anyway, I was going through coming over a hurdle about myself and my truth last year and I was digging into both my world and myself. Even now, at this time, I am in a space of getting ready to begin anew and I share what it was like then and now.

Follow me as I share my Poem Talks, my musings, my Inner Peace Journey and through the healing work I find myself fully committed to as I learn about the truth of who I am, find new awarenesses about myself and life and share it with you in hopes that it will provide insight to your journey as well.

My Poem Talks means a lot to me and I share my deep dive into Self over the past year and a half. I reference the poems I wrote since 2021, and share how I was going deep into my healing work because I knew things needed to change in my life. I asked for the changes but it took the moment to moment experience of life for me to learn more about my truth and why I am here on this planet.

The most important thing I’m finding is the connection between my Self, my Higher Self and my Higher Power. From the truth, love, beauty, connection, joy and inner peace I find inside, I am readily available to share my gifts with the world.

These poems that were written over this time, document the journey going on inside me. Who am I really? I am a highly sensitive being and I am Love.

It hasn’t been easy and quite frankly, this time around in this life, my Soul chose many challenges to face so I could learn about compassion, love, peace and joy (my own first and then for others). I lived my life in a complete state of “not good enough” which fully reflected in my experiences, and when that is going on, knowing myself as compassion, love, peace and joy was confounding to me.

Throughout this journey of seeking external sources to prove that I was worthy of love, after almost 30 years, I realized that the truth is inside me.

Working through grief was the kicker, feeling my anger (all my feelings) that I was never allowed to feel or show, I had no clue where I would end up.

I left my last relationship in April of 2021 and stayed in Central Florida for literally a gestation period of 8 months which pushed me into the re-birthing process to really get to know who I am and why I am here. My life really began to open up the following month as I was birthed into the beginning of my new and very different life.

Life doesn’t always work out in the way we plan (and mostly that is a good thing) but for me, confronting the darkness of my life and what I was bringing into jobs, relationships and life in general, showed me that how I lived and the things I was taught throughout my life was not my truth of who I am.

In order to truly heal, I needed to walk through the grief, as painful as it was, forgive myself for not knowing better at the times I didn’t which my behavior showed, and to forgive others fully in order to find the love inside me… as I continue to discover this truth and ultimately inner peace.

The journey continues…

 

She’s finally seeing who she’s always been,

It got lost in the shuffle and hid deep within,

She was always told to not be loud,

Or to stand out in the crowd.

She had to face that being demure,

Was all they could take, and it left her unsure,

Because she knew that deep inside,

There was a power she could not hide.

It got confusing for years on end,

No one understood her, not even her friends,

And now here in time is a deep reckoning,

The challenge… she always felt she was threatening.

To others and wanted to ensure they felt ok,

And covered who she really was, that is, until today,

She is seeing now that powerful girl,

Who is also gentle and loved to twirl…

In her favorite yellow dress, she adored to wear,

And she also did not mind leaves in her hair.

She loved to play down by the creek,

Sharing with nature her beautiful mystique,

That she had found herself to be,

You see that force of nature is also me.

Finding that my love for myself is pure,

And now I know I need not endure,

To be what others wanted me to,

I am still shifting, this is not through.

Know this about me, I can survive…

I know that my power has kept me alive,

In this journey I chose to take,

This was meant to be, it’s not a mistake.

But survive is not what I choose to do,

It’s my turn to expand and express, it’s true,

I have been searching all of my life,

For the powerful woman, the old beliefs have died.

It cannot happen to us anymore,

We as women need to implore,

Ourselves if we wish to bring life again,

To a planet and people that have been dying from men.

The patriarchy needs to be repealed,

And the teachings of society that harms is revealed,

Yet the toxic feminine must shift, now it’s time,

To heal ourselves and bring us back to sublime.

Remember this, the patriarchy,

Doesn’t just affect women, also men who want to be free,

Please understand, I am not against the male,

But freedom for life for all, on a larger scale.

Whether anyone wants to admit that it’s real,

It is a fact that the feminine does not steal,

What she does is nurture and give,

So all shall have a beautiful place to live.

To live in peace and love and joy,

It’s not the way for us to destroy,

Ourselves and the planet, the only way to deal,

With this is for each woman to heal.

Completely and now we know,

This is the time as #metoo really grows,

So everyone knows that what they were told,

About the feminine is so we all could be controlled.

The toxic masculine, toxic feminine is now done,

We all must shift if we want to be as One,

To bring peace to the Earth, it’s what we must do,

It’s time we heal ourselves and begin anew.

Come join me in a healing partnership…

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