Watch The Ride of My Life – Poem Talks – Thoughts for the Moment©
Welcome to The Ride of My Life – Poem Talks!
After a year of deep diving into healing work and finding out about who I am and who I’ve been in my life, I share the poems I have written over this time that document the journey inside of me. Who am I really? I am Love and this is my Journey.
I was working through the grief of the new changes in my life and then on 6/17/2021, I began the walk into the depths of my journey and my soul to find out the truth about myself questioning where I would end up. After leaving my relationship/partnership and moving to Central Florida for a couple of months, which ended up being 8 months, it pushed me into the re-birthing process of the truth of who I am. Life doesn’t always work out the way we planned and in the time I was there, I confronted my darkness and what I brought to the jobs, relationships and life I had experienced. I learned in order to truly heal, I needed to grieve, forgive myself and others and find the love inside me.
In this video, I talk about the wait… sitting in the healing and waiting for things to shift. Feeling my feelings and everyone else’s and learning the difference. I want to just do something. I don’t fit in. I am learning to be.
The journey continues…
Content Notification: Emotional Topics For some of you, have your pet, blanket, tissues, water, or a journal nearby in case you become emotionally triggered during this media experience. My poems talk about a deep dive into my soul and into the emotional realm and I want you to be prepared in case you need to.
The wait is the hardest in this moment,
And it is in the wait that I find the truth, my pure truth,
Of who I am and what life brings to me,
We are taught to seek and find and in that we lose ourselves,
Others start to take over with the input of what we should or shouldn’t do,
Only based on their traumas and fears,
Then I, slowly and surely, shut down… me,
Who am I?
There is a deepness to me,
I feel me, I feel you,
I feel the pain of myself, and I feel the pain of others, animals included,
What I now know is that I can’t help or change that pain for anyone, unless they are ready and willing,
I can only help me right now,
No desire on my part for someone else’s healing can shift that,
I am my own,
I am not known,
The world is different,
I am not familiar to people,
Sometimes I feel as though people are repulsed by me,
Particular people, not everyone,
Just the ones I don’t want to be repulsed by, and herein lies a beautiful lesson,
What is that about?
I don’t know… yet, or will I ever really?
Their path is just different, although from lessons, when the paths cross, are painful,
Rejection is hard for me, it has been a story in my life,
I still work through that as I find who cares for me and who doesn’t,
This I can do nothing about,
Other than to discern what is right for me in my life,
And so, I go back to what I can change about me,
No… shift, release…
The story, the lies, the beliefs, the untruths about who I feel I am,
Has been attracting these painful lessons into my life,
I get it, I don’t get it, and then… I get it again,
That is the process as I continue to lose my mind,
Which I’m finding is turning out to be a good thing,
The sit, the wait, is torture to my mind and I am finding that it is necessary,
Having been a Type A personality, in the military, with what I call a Monkey Mind,
Is so completely opposite of where I am right now,
It is time, in this moment, to just wait,
I am ok, I am doing this, and…
I’m still human.
Come join me in a healing partnership…
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