Welcome to The Ride of My Life Podcast!
Follow me as I share my Poem Talks, my musings, my Inner Peace Journey and through the healing work I find myself fully committed to as I learn about the truth of who I am, find new awarenesses about myself and life and share it with you in hopes that it will provide insight to your journey as well.
My Poem Talks means a lot to me and I share my deep dive into Self over the past year and a half. I reference the poems I wrote since 2021, and share how I was going deep into my healing work because I knew things needed to change in my life. I asked for the changes but it took the moment to moment experience of life for me to learn more about my truth and why I am here on this planet.
The most important thing I’m finding is the connection between my Self, my Higher Self and my Higher Power. From the truth, love, beauty, connection, joy and inner peace I find inside, I am readily available to share my gifts with the world.
These poems that were written over this time document the journey going on inside me. Who am I really? I am a highly sensitive being and I am Love.
It hasn’t been easy and quite frankly, this time around in this life, my Soul chose many challenges to face so I could learn about compassion, love, peace and joy (my own first and then for others). I lived my life in a complete state of “not good enough” which fully reflected in my experiences, and when that is going on, knowing myself as compassion, love, peace and joy was confounding to me.
Throughout this journey of seeking external sources to prove that I was worthy of love, after almost 30 years, I realized that the truth is inside me.
Working through grief was the kicker, feeling my anger (all my feelings) that I was never allowed to feel or show, I had no clue where I would end up.
I left my last relationship in April of 2021 and stayed in Central Florida for literally a gestation period of 8 months which pushed me into the re-birthing process to really get to know who I am and why I am here. My life really began to open up the following month as I was birthed into the beginning of my new and very different life.
Life doesn’t always work out in the way we plan (and mostly that is a good thing) but for me, confronting the darkness of my life and what I was bringing into jobs, relationships and life in general, showed me that how I lived and the things I was taught throughout my life was not my truth of who I am.
In order to truly heal, I needed to walk through the grief, as painful as it was, forgive myself for not knowing better at the times I didn’t which my behavior showed, and to forgive others fully in order to find the love inside me… as I continue to discover this truth and ultimately inner peace.
This episode is a big deal for me in my journey. I talk about what the phrase “The struggle is real” means to me and what it can mean for others. Moving through the developmental trauma experienced in my life, I a finding a new lease on life and this poem, although written over a year ago, has come full circle.
The journey continues…
Content Notification: Emotional Topics: For some of you, you may become emotionally triggered during this media experience. My poems talk about a deep dive into my soul and into the emotional realm and I want you to be prepared in case you need to.
Not being raised in a family, who really understood any of these,
Faith, Trust and Courage vs always be sure to please,
The other is more important and I don’t know who made that so,
This isn’t the truth of being, it’s ourselves that we need to know.
Everyone has their opinion,
As humans we want our dominion,
Not only of the animal kingdom,
But each other and in that is no wisdom.
The wisdom comes when we let go of the past,
The ideas and thoughts that we assumed we needed to have,
We were told that others were more important than us,
To the detriment of our health and self, was that must?
It isn’t true, it’s never been,
Not feeling good enough, hating ourselves is the sin,
God never intended for it to be this way,
After all, we are created in the image of God, so let us not delay.
We cannot move forward and find the love within,
If we stay stuck in this paradigm of “at all costs, I must win,”
For winning is something that comes naturally, dear,
When we realize there are other ways to do life, without fear.
And here is what I have come to understand,
Please, take a listen, and make your own plan,
To understand self, to the deepest inside,
Where we no longer have to run and hide.
Where we can see ourselves as our Higher Power does,
We can be at peace, and enjoy the love,
We have inside, yet we must have faith,
To believe it is there and not get caught up in the wraith.
Beginning to trust in ourselves, it is so true,
You will find that your life will begin anew,
And finally, what I feel is the most important to begin,
To have the courage to go within.
It really isn’t that scary inside,
When you start to look, you may want to hide,
From what you think is in there, it can be very dark,
What is actually happening as you breathe in the spark.
The breath, you see, will bring in the light,
And then you can see what is really there, no fright,
Going inside to the depths of the truth,
Continue the journey and learning to soothe.
To find who you are is a miracle for you,
When you know that you’re greatness, you will make it through,
The glow in there gets bigger and then,
Eventually you see the love, can I get an Amen!
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